quiet day today, woke up just before 3am after falling asleep at approximately 8pm last night.
after being up for a short period i fell back asleep to wake up again at approximately 5:3X-4X.
had some chocolate cereal for breakfast and a few hours later had fried eggs on bread as a second
meal. i put the bread in the pan with butter and garlic salt, i didn't get it perfect but it was
still good. ended up mostly spending the day on youtube and discord. a message someone sent reminded
me of a game i played a little while ago that wasn't finished when i played. there has been an update
since but i think the project is abandoned. i would like to see it continued as i thought it was very cute.
also paid for another amiami order. when paying for that order i found out about two teddy bear plushes movic
is going to be releasing of reimu and marisa.
i think they are adorable and i want to preorder them, but my february order already has the 4 bocchi
fumos in it, meaning it's going to start getting pretty expensive. and with no job currently i'm not
sure it's a great idea. will likely end up ordering them regardless and just hope for the best.
a lot of things i do now take so much time because i cant just keep doing it. i jump between 5 things
because i either get bored, or i lose track of my thoughts, or i just want to keep doing the thing i
was doing before. this entry alone has taken several hours to write. i've jumped between this, talking
in discord, watching northernlion clips and something else i can't even remember. all i do is waste
time and don't even have fun doing it.
been living the neet life for a little while now and there are upsides and downsides. with each passing
day i know i should be applying to jobs because i need to get income but i cant bring myself to start
applying. i know how much i hated working and i dont want to be forced to interact with people again.
theres moments where i think it would be okay but when i think about the bad parts it just seems so much
worse. like the difficulty of it isnt even worth getting paid.
i should check out surugaya again to see what i want to buy, ive had ~40 tabs open of it for two weeks now.
itsudemo i love you kimi ni take kiss me. god i love teto but writing this line just reminded me of how lonely i am.
i want companionship and to be able to feel the touch of another so badly.